Isabella.I have been home with Leah for a week now and things weren't too easy. I always heard that being a mom wasn't always so glamorous and easy and I was figuring that out. I love Leah and wouldn't trade in being a mom for anything, but without Lee it was kinda tough. Sure, his parents were here but there was only so much they could do. I wasn't going to wake them up in the middle of the night to help me. I'm sure they would, but it just isn't right. Leah was my responsiblity and not theirs.
Lee has been busy with the show and had to stay at the hotel. The days were booked with rehersals, photo shoots, interviews, and whatever else they do on the show. I have yet to make it to any of the live shows and have been watching from the house and voting like crazy. I was really proud of him and once he makes it to the Top 12, which I know he will, I will make it to the shows. Right now, Leah was too little and I was in no shape to be possibly on tv.
I stood in the living room of the house, packing up Leah's diaper bag. Lee's dad was on the couch with Leah in his arms as he watched the tv in front of him.
"Are you excited to see daddy today?" I bent down and kissed Leah's cheek.
Today we were going to visit Lee at his hotel. He had a couple of hours free and whenever he was free he would spend it with Leah and me. It was nice to be able to get out of the house for a couple hours and I'm sure Leah agreed with me.
"You better leave some presents in that diaper of yours Leah. Give you're old man something to clean up." Lee's dad said and I smiled, "You can cry a lot for him too if you want. Get him back for everything that he made me and your Grandma go through. He was a pain in our butts when he got older."
I laughed as I tossed a bib in her diaper bag and my cellphone started ringing. I reached on the end table and grabbed my cellphone. I looked at the caller ID. My heart dropped and my stomach churned when I saw the name across the ID.
"Can you please watch her while I take this?" I asked.
"Yeah. I'm going to tell her all about how Lee drove me crazy."
I smiled and nodded as I walked out of the living room. I headed out the sliding glass door and stepped onto the patio. I sat down on the chair and placed my phone to my ear and let out a small sigh as I answered it.
"Hi mom." I said quietly.
"Hi Isabella. I want you to know that I got the pictures of Leah. Your sisters sent them to me." She said.
"Oh." I said.
"She's beautiful and I want to congratulate you and Lee."
"Um. Thanks mom." I said, running my hands through my hair nervously.
I haven't talked to my parents since I broke the news that I was pregnant to them. I was so angry and hurt with the way that they reacted. I didn't want the negative energy around. I wanted to focus on myself and Leah. Not my parents. I listened to it growing up and was sick of it. They didn't stand behind me on one of the most life changing things that I will probably ever experience and that hurt me.
"It hurts me that I didn't even get a phone call when she was born and I had to hear it from your sisters."
"I didn't think you really cared. You made it a point how you felt about everything going on." I sighed.
"Of course I care. It just really bothered me that I couldn't even get a phone call to tell me that she was born. I have to figure everything from her name to when she was born from your sisters."
"Stop trying to play the victim role in this mom. You and dad made it clear on how you felt about everything and I didn't really want to have to deal with it all. I'm finally in a good spot in my life and I am happy. I don't want you to ruin it with the little jabs you give to me."
"Ever since you have gotten involved with this boy, you have changed so much."
"Don't even bring Lee into this. You have treated the poor guy like crap since the first day you met him. He treats me so good and he is a amazing father. You should be happy that I found someone who treats me the way he does. You and dad are so wrapped up in your own little world where everyone is rich, glamorous, and worries about what other people think of them. I found a man who loves me for me and it baffles me that you can't be happy for me." I said.
"I don't approve of the relationship you two have. You jump into it so fast and the next thing I know you are pregnant with this guys baby. You have to be careful. You come from money and how do you know that this guy really loves you and isn't in it for the money?" My mom said.
"Because not every person is like you mom." I snapped.
"Excuse me?" She said, and I could tell I hit a nerve.
"Face it mom. Your marriage is a sham and I wanted the opposite of that. I don't want to be with a guy who cheats on me with his secretary. I don't want a guy who needs me to maintain a certain look to make him look good. I don't want a guy who doesn't love me. That's exactly what you and dad have and that is exactly what Nate and I would have had. I thought that was okay growing up, but than I met a man who treats me with respect and would do anything in the world to make me happy and I realized that I was better than that. If you don't approve and you dislike him, I'm sorry. I'm happy though and that is all that should matter." I told her.
"I'm sorry, but I don't approve of him or the relationship." My mom scoffed, "What you and Nate had was perfect and you went and blew that to be with some wannabe rockstar who got you knocked up."
"You don't even understand half the shit Nate put me through! You just liked the fact that he was rich, young, and goodlooking." I said, my voice raising as I clutched the phone tighter.
"Don't raise your voice at me." My mom said.
"I am done with this mom. I have been criticized for everything I did since I was a kid and I am sick of it. I can't do this anymore." I said.
"So, that's it?" She scoffed.
"Unless you change the way you treat Lee and myself then yes it is. I can't handle the negativity anymore."
"Isabella." My mom sighed.
"Bye mom."
I hung up my phone and let out a groan. Maybe I was too harsh on her, but she deserved every bit of it. I have been holding it in for 21 years and it had to be released. I couldn't take their stuck up attitudes anymore.
I stood up and straightened out my Juicy Couture track suit and shoved my phone in the jacket pockets. I walked back through the sliding glass doors and was greeted by Leah's shrill cries. I sighed and headed into the living room, seeing Lee's mom pacing the room with Leah in her arms.
"What's going on Miss. Leah?" I asked, walking over to Lee's mom.
"I didn't so anything. She just started to freak out of nowhere." Lee's dad held up his hands and I smiled.
"Do you wanna go and see daddy?" I asked, taking her from Lee's mom and kissing the top of her head. She immediately calmed down as she snuggled into my arms.
"She just wanted her mommy." Lee's mom said.
I smiled and kissed Leah's cheek. She was the one person who will always need me and I needed to be the best mom I could be. I couldn't think about my mom and her negative comments. I didn't want to be like my mom. I actually wanted to be there for my daughter and I will be.
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I waited paiently outside of Lee's hotel room door, waiting for him to answer it.
"You're daddy is a slow poke Leah." I said, putting down her carrier on the floor in front of me and looking down at her. She looked up at me with her big blue eyes, as she heard my voice and I smiled, "He needs to learn that he doesn't keep us two girls waiting."
The door finally opened and I picked up Leah's carrier as Lee stood on the other side wearing a black tee-shirt, basketball shorts, and a red beanie. His face lit up as he saw Leah and he reached out taking her carrier from my grasp.
"Hey baby." I said, reaching up and giving him a kiss.
"Hi!"
I followed Lee into his room and dropped the bags on the bed as Lee placed Leah's carrier on the chair, in the corner of the room. He unhooked her and gently picked her up, placing her tiny body against his chest. He rested his hand on her small back. He leaned down and kissed her, whispering how he misses her and loves her. I smiled and took a seat on his bed.
"How is everything at the house?" Lee asked, looking at me.
"Alright. You're parents have been such a big help and I really appreciate it." I said.
"Believe my mom is in all her glory. She doesn't have any grand daughters so she is spoiling Leah as much as possible."
"I noticed." I smiled.
Lee walked over to the bed and sat down next to me. He rested his back against the headboard.
"We make good looking babies." Lee smiled.
"Yeah we do." I said quietly, laying my head against his arm and looking at Leah who was staring up at Lee.
"We can get her to sleep and make some more." Lee said.
"Is that seriously the best you can do? First, no more babies for a long time and second, you have to keep it in your pants for atleast another three weeks big boy." I patted his shoulder.
"Says who?" Lee scoffed.
"My doctor." I said.
"I've never been anyone who follows the rules and I'm not about to start following them now." Lee smiled.
"I follow the rules so simmer down there." I said.
"Mommy's going to drive daddy up the wall and she thinks it's funny." Lee whispered to Leah and I laughed softly.
"My mom called." I said, reaching up and brushing a piece of hair out of his face that was falling out of his beanie.
"Oh. How did that go?" He looked at me.
"Not good. She bitched out that I didn't call her after Leah was born and then went on to tell me how you are the person to blame for all this." I sighed.
"Are you alright?" He asked me, kissing the top of my head.
"Yeah." I nodded, "I just don't like that you have to get in the middle of this. You put up with so much crap from my parents for no reason at all and you don't deserve it."
"It honestly doesn't bother me. Let them say what they want about me. I don't need their approval. We're happy and have a beautiful little girl. If you're parents don't like me because I'm not some rich heir than that is their problem."
"I love you baby." I leaned up and pecked his lips quickly.
"Why don't you show me later?" He teased.
"Shut up!" I laughed, laying my head on his shoulder.
I was so lucky to have him in my life.