Crazy Dreams

[lovestory]

Kendall.

The following night Lee, his brother, my sisters, and me were all out to dinner. We were having a dinner for my sisters who just got in and it was going really well. I was a bit skeptical though, Mike had been eyeballing Leah all night and my eighteen year old baby sister, was not going to be dating my boyfriend's twenty year old brother. I loved Mike and think he is a good kid, but I have seen the way he is around girls and I will not let my sister be one of his flavor of the weeks. She was way too young and innocent for him.

"They are getting awfully chummy over there." Lee leaned over and whispered to me.

"You better tell him to back off a bit." I looked at Lee, "That's my little sister and I know how Mike is. He will hook up with anything with a vagina and I am not having my little sister get hurt by him. I love him and I think one day he will make a great boyfriend, but right now he wants to have fun."

"Let them have fun. They are both adults." Lee shrugged, taking a sip of his beer.

"Hardly. Leah is just eighteen and Mike is closer to twenty one." I glanced at Lee and shook my head.

"They aren't doing anything wrong. They are flirting and if they hook up, they hook up." Lee shrugged.

"He is not hooking up with Leah. Nobody is." I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Mike's smart. He saw the sh!t that we got ourselves into." Lee laughed and looked over at me, "My parents had the sex talk with us. We know about protection, you're obviously the one that had issues with her birth control."

I looked up from my plate as everyone stopped talking amongst the table. I looked over at Lee and his smile wiped off his face.

"You know, you're a real a$$hole when you drink." I snapped, dropping my fork and rolling my eyes.

"Are you pregnant?" Bayley gasped.

"Your sister and I had a bit of a scare. We later found out that Kendall missed a day of her birth control and we were freaking out thinking she was pregnant, but all of the tests were negative." Lee explained.

"Kendall." Leah's eyes widened.

"Thanks a lot, Lee." I muttered, shaking my head in disgust.

"Oh. I thought you didn't care if they knew." Lee shrugged, taking another sip of his beer.

"I'm heading back to the apartment. I am exhausted and quite frankly, I can't sit here with this drunk jackass and act like everything is alright, because right now I want to slam his head against the table." I said, pushing my chair out and standing up, "Thanks a lot, Lee for ruining a nice dinner."

"Awkward." Mike said.

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I laid in bed later that night, when my door opened. I glanced up and saw Leah and Bayley walking in. They both climbed on my bed and laid down. Bayley reached over and brushed my hair out of my face and looked down at me.I quickly wiped my tears and sighed.

I didn't want my sisters knowing any of this. I didn't need them to worry about me when they had so much crap on their plate with my parents divorce. They were out in Los Angeles to escape all of that and I didn't want them to have to deal with anymore bull crap.

"Are you alright?" Leah asked softly.

"Yeah." I nodded, "Gosh. He is such a jackass sometimes. I just wish he would learn when to shut his mouth. He tries to make everything a joke and somethings aren't funny."

"Why didn't you tell us?" Bayley questioned.

"I was scared and I didn't want you to worry about me. I didn't want you to tell mom and have her worry about me. You guys are going through so much crap with mom and dad and I didn't want you to worry about the stupid stuff that I am going through. Obviously if I was pregnant ya'll would be the first ones I told, but I didn't wanna worry you until I knew the answer."

"And your definately not?" Leah asked.

"I took three tests and all of them were negative. I'm not pregnant." I gave them a small smile, "I had a stomach bug the other morning and my period was a bit late. My stomach is fine now and my period came last night. I am not going to be a mother."

"Good." Leah smiled.

"Don't tell mom this." I said.

"This is our secret." Bayley nodded.

"Now, what the hell is going on with you and Mike?" I asked Leah, with a small smile.

"Ya know. He's cute and a nice guy, but nothing is going on. I am aware he doesn't want anything serious and I don't wanna be a hook up. I think we will just be friends for now."

"Good. You don't need a boyfriend. They are way too much work." I laughed.

"Well, if a guy as hot as Mike comes along or if Mike ever decides he wants something then I am all for it." Leah said.

"I wish Lee had an older brother that I could date. We could all marry the DeWyze brothers then."

"Marry is kinda a long road ahead, believe me." I told her.

"Oh puhlease. You guys will be married. I bet my life on it." Bayley smiled, "Ya'll may have your arguments, but every coupld does and I see the way he looks at you and you look at him. It's sickening to see how in love two people could be."

"I do love him. No matter how much he pisses me off." I grinned.

"I can see it now. Ya'll are going to be huge stars and have houses in Chicago, Los Angeles, and Georgia. Ya'll will get married and have a bunch of little Lee's and Kendall's running around. It will be the perfect little family. The new Brad and Angelina." Leah explained.

"Ya'll are crazy." I laughed.

As if he sensed us talking about him Lee walked in. He walked over to my bed and climbed on top of me, straddling my waist and hugging me as he planted kisses all over my face. I laughed and tried pushing him away, with no success.

"Ew, ya'll need to stop." Leah called out.

"Let's get out of here and let the married couple fornicate." Bayley said, grabbing Leah's arm and pulling her out of the room.

"I'm sorry that I was a jackass. I love you." Lee laughed, burying his face against my neck.

"Get your drunk butt off me." I laughed.

"Only if you forgive me." Lee said.

"I forgive you, I guess." I smiled, placing my hands on either side of his face as he looked oat me, "Just don't be a jackass anymore. I hate when you drink because you do some really stupid crap."

"I do stupid crap when I am sober or drunk." Lee shrugged.

"Can you get off me now?" I laughed.

"Oh yeah." He rolled off me and I laid my head on his chest.

"I love you, even if you are jerk sometimes." I teased him.

"I love you, even if you can be a drama queen." He teased back.

"I am not!"

Lee grinned and kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around my waist. I buried my face in his neck and wrapped my arm around his waist.

"Get some sleep we have to meet the mentor for this week tomorrow, which means it's going to be a long night." Lee muttered, closing his eyes.

"Did I say you could stay over?" I glanced up at him, running my fingers through his messy hair.

"Too bad. I'm staying here."

"If you start snoring you are outta here." I smirked.

"Yeah. If you start moaning my name, then I will take care of you don't worry."

"In your dreams, Lee."

"Go to sleep." Lee laughed.

No matter what we argue about, I love making up with him. He's a amaizng guy, no matter how much he can piss me off at times.

[caitlynj]

they are so cute together.

[lovestory]

Kendall.

I walked into the rehsersal room and saw Alicia Keys, our guest mentor, and Michael, the musical director. This weeks theme was Inispirational songs, for Idols Give Back. It's a big charity event that is going to be held on the results show and a bunch of celebrities come out and raise money for various charities. So, it was going to be a lot of fun to participate and be able to help out people who need our help, not just around the country, but the world.

I was shocked when I saw Alicia Keys walk into the room earlier. I have been a fan of hers since her first album came out and to be able to meet someone as successful and talented as her is insane, and to get her help on what to do is even more insane.

"Hey. How are you?" Alicia asked me, as I walked over to her.

"I'm pretty good. How are you?" I asked, giving her a quick hug.

"I'm great! You look gorgeous." She smiled, grabbing my hand.

"Thank you. So do you." I smiled, "I am such a huge fan of yours and it's pretty crazy to be standing here next to you. Excuse me and my fangirling."

Michael and Alicia laughed and I shrugged, smoothing out my outfit nervously. I just embarassed myself in front of one of the world's biggest recording artists, with my rambling, but it's all good. I am used to embarassing myself. It's a daily thing.

"What are you singing for us?" Alicia asked, with a big smile.

"When You Believe by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey," I said, holding up my sheet music, "I know they say you should never cover Mariah or Whitney and I am going after both of them. I like a little challange though."

'I've heard you belt out some crazy notes. I think you can handle this." She said, "Let's hear what you got and we will work on from there."

"Alright." I nodded.

Michael started to play the introduction to the song and I put the music down and started singing. I wanted to do my best to impress Alicia Keys, she is the one mentor who I was actually estatic to work with, not that the other ones sucked. She was just someone I always looked up to and I always loved her music. I just wanted her to think I was good. I didn't want to sound like a dying cat or anything.

I finished singing and she smiled and nodded, looking pretty impressed. I let out a deep breath and a nervous laugh.

"That was so nerve wracking." I laughed.

"Don't be nervous. Own that song. You have such a huge voice and I think that overshadows your lower register, which is absolutely gorgeous. I think you should really just sit back and sing this song. I woudln't change it up too much and put in your big notes where they aren't needed and add a little of your style, but don't go crazy changing it up."

"I am going to rest the screaming, because I know Simon hates that note." I smiled.

"Yeah, you definately don't need that for this song. You have a beautiful voice and you are doing some things that people who have been in the business for years aren't able to do."

"Thanks." I grinned.

"My only concern is, that you don't know how good you are. You seem a bit apprehensive with some of the high notes. You need to believe you are good and show America why you are here and why they should vote for you. You have a certain quality about you that I think is so awesome. You're an amazing singer, believe that."

"I have problems sometimes believing that I am good. This is the frist real singing competition I have ever done and to be surronded by all these talented people, it can be a bit intimdating at times."

"Oh, no doubt about it. You are just as good as everyone in there though. Like I said, you are doing things I didn't even know were possible."

Maybe I wasn't giving myself enough credit. Maybe I was better then I thought I was. I mean afterll, I am standing here in the Top seven on American Idol and haven't landed in the bottom 3 once. I have an amazing fanbase, which means people actually think I am good.

"You need to believe you are more then just the pretty girl, you can sing your butt off. You are like a black girl, trapped in a little white girls body." She said, and I laughed, "Let's work on this and change it up a tiny bit and then we will go over it again."

"Awesome." I smiled and nodded.

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I walked out of the rehersal room about a hour later and walked over to the contestants who were all sitting around, playing thier guitars or eating. I walked over and sat down between Lee and Crystal, who were sitting oin the couch eating.

"How'd it go?" Crystal asked.

"Awesome! She had to be one of sweetest people I have ever met." I smiled, "Freakin' Alicia Keys!"

"I'm sensing a bit of a girl crush." Lee winked, placing his arm around the back of the couch.

"We've been through this before, Taylor Swift is my girl crush." I corrected him.

"Do I need to be worried that you are going to leave me for a chick?" Lee asked, grabbing his Red Bull from the table and taking a sip.

"No." I smirked.

"That would be kinda hot though. I won't lie." Lee said and I made a face, as Crystal laughed.

"Are we doing anything tonight?" Crystal asked, "Tony and the baby are back in Oklahoma and I don't wanna really sit inside on our off night."

"Let's do something. I think I am getting cabin fever from sitting inside all the time." I said.

"Let's get tattoos." Lee suggested, "Mike and I were talking the other day and we both wanna get one eventually. Why not tonight?"

"I'm so down!" Crystal grinned.

"I don't know." I smiled.

"Get something pierced." Lee said.

"I already have three in my ear, my cartlidge, and my bellybutton. I always thought about doing my nose, but I'm still up in the air with that." I told him, "If ya'll go and get tattoos next week I will totally go. My grandparents are coming in tomorrow and if they see my inked up they will have a cow. I don't wanna be held responsible for giving my Nanna a heart attack."

"You will not get a tattoo." Lee laughed.

"You wanna bet?" I asked.

"Okay. Crystal, you, Mike, and me will go for a tattoo next week on our off day and we'll see if you go through with it."

"They aren't going to be matching though, are they?" I asked.

"No. I want my name tattooed on your butt and then a big heart on your arm with my face in it." Lee cracked up.

"Those would be the ugliest tattoos." I shot back, "Especially the one with your face on it."

"That's cold."

I grinned and leaned over and gave him a kiss.

"I'm just kidding. I love this little face." I squeezed his cheeks in my hands, "You're too cute."

[caitlynj]

wow tattoos, can't wait to read about that.

[lovestory]

Kendall.

We were all gathered in Casey and Tim's apartment. Big Mike and Casey decided they were going to barbeque, since Paige, Didi, and Lacey were all back. Andrew and Katie were heading back on Sunday, since they had a lot of press in New York. I couldn't wait to see them again.

I sat in the living room with Casey, Paige, and Big Mike.

"Lacey is all over your man!" Paige said.

I looked over at Lee and Lacey, who were standing outside on the balcony. Her arm was around his shoulder and he looked uncomfortable, stepping away a bit as he puffed on his cigarette. I laid my head on the back of the couch and rolled my eyes.

"Am I overreacting or not?" I asked.

"Definately not. I really like, Lacey, but what she is doing is pretty messed up." Casey answered.

"I really wanna go and have a talk with her. I don't wanna fight, I just want to tell her how I feel about what she is doing and that I want her to stop. It's rude and it's putting Lee in a really awkward position, because they are friends and I know that he doesn't want that to change."

"I'm not breaking up any fights. I've seen you get mad Thompson and you are a scrappy thing. Lee, has some brusies from your purple nurples." Big Mike said.

"I'm not going to fight the girl. I'm not going to even waste that much energy." I smiled, and looked back over at them, "There are a million other guys in the world. Why does she go after, Lee?"

"Cause he is so dreamy!" Big Mike said in a girly voice, and we all laughed.

"I'm going to go talk to her." I said, standing up from the couch.

"Keep it classy, Kendall." Casey grinned.

"Will do, princess!" I smiled and patted his head as I walked past him.

I walked out the sliding glass door and walked over to the table, where Lee, Lacey, Didi, and Tim were all sitting and talking. I took a seat in the empty chair between Lee and Tim. Lee placed his hand on my shoulder and squeezed it. I smiled and looked up, seeing Lacey giving me the evil eye.

"Lacey, can we talk?" I asked.

"Sure." She nodded.

"Ya'll can stay if you want as long as Lacey doesn't care." I said.

"Nope. Fine with me." She answered.

"Alright. I just feel like you are being really disrespectful to me and I don't wanna fight and turn this into something bigger then it is, but it's been really bothering me and I wanted to address it." I told her.

"Kendall, tell me how I have been disrespecting you." Lacey sighed.

"Well for starters you are all over, Lee whenever I am around and I find that extrememly disrespectful. How would you feel if you had a boyfriend and someone who used to be your friend was all over him? Not to mention you played me in the past. You backstabbed me and made me look like a complete idiot. I honestly don't know what your problem is with me."

"For starters Lee and me are friends and we have been friends since before ya'll were dating, so you honestly need to get over that!" Lacey said.

"I don't care if your friends. Lee can be friends with whoever he wants to be, but you honestly need to draw the line somewhere. I've seen the flirty text messages, I've seen you with your arms around him, I've seen you grab at him and say flirty things to him and I don't understand why you can't just accept the fact that we are together." I sighed.

"I never understood what he saw in you! I really don't." Lacey said.

"This is getting really awkward." Tim said, and Lee laughed.

I shot him a look and he stopped smiling.

"Regardless if you approve of us being together or not. We are together and you just have to get over it." I told her.

"I think we should not have this conversation." Lee said, looking at me.

"We need to have this conversation, because I am sick and tired of her practically banging you in front of me!" I said.

"Oh. Give me a break." Lacey laughed, "You have issues. If you worry about Lee so much, then maybe ya'll shouldn't be together. You should be able to trust your boyfriend and if you are worried that he will go after me then I think you have some issues in this perfect little life of yours."

I'm not worried about Lee at all. I trust him a hundred percent and I have no reason not to." I corrected her, "I just think it's extremely rude the way you act towards him when I am around."

"Whatever. I won't talk to you anymore, Lee." Lacey said.

"That's not what she is saying, Lacey." Lee sighed, leaning his head back, "I hate all this drama. Don't get me involved with it."

"You two have fun playing house together. I'm sure you won't last, considering you have already broken up what? 2 times?" Lacey asked.

"Shut up." I whispered.

"She's a real winner, Lee. I hope you come to your senses soon and realize she isn't worth your time. You can find a girl who is much more pretty, nice, and talented."

"Lacey." Lee closed his eyes.

"Oh and word of advice, Kendall. This week don't sing through your nose, it is getting quite disturbing." Lacey rolled her eyes.

"Yeah, I'm going to take advice from someone who didn't even make the top 10." I rolled my eyes.

"That was a low blow." Didi said.

"Didi, butt out please. The giel has been attacking me and I am going to fight back." I said.

"Also, your ex-boyfriend was right. You look like a heffer on tv." She grinned, "But, you kinda look like one in person. I guess you have been gaining weight. The pressure must be getting to you."

"F#%* you!" I snapped.

I stood up and quickly walked inside, slamming the sliding glass door. I hurried down the hall and into the bathroom, locking the door. I sat on the edge of the tub and let out a soft sob. There was a knock on the door, followed by the knob turning.

"It's me. Let me in." Lee said, from the other side of the door.

I reached out, unlocking the door and opening up. He quickly walked in and closed and locked the door again.

"That was such a low blow." I said quietly, letting out a shaky breath, "I have some issues and I was finally getting used to my body and accepting it and then she goes and says that! She knows all the crap I have been through and to throw it back in my face is so messed up! I have so much hate for that girl and I don't hate people easily."

"I know and that is the reaction she wanted to get. She shouldn't have said it, that was a horrible thing to do." Lee knelt down in front of me and grabbed my hand in his.

"She's such a bitch and I wanna punch her in the face." I said and Lee gave me a small smile.

"You're probably still the nicest person when you get mad," He laughed, and kissed my forhead, "Ignore her. She wants to hurt you and make you upset. She's one of those girls that gets joy in making other girls miserable. It's almost like a jealousy thing. You have everything that she wants. The fans, the looks, the man. Especially the man."

"Shut up. This is all your fault." I laughed softly, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him. I rested my cheek on his shoulder.

"I love you and you're beautiful. Do not listen to what crazy chicks say." Lee said, kissing my cheek.

"I love you too." I said quietly.

"No more crying." Lee said, wiping my tears as I sat up.

"Will you love me even if I am a fat slob?" I asked, scratching the back of his head lightly.

"Absoluetly." He grinned, standing up and pulling me up with him and wrapping his arm around my waist.

"Good." I smiled.

"Just stick with me the rest of the night. I won't let her hurt you." Lee told me.

"And what the hell was with Didi butting in?" I scoffed, as Lee unlocked the door.

"Don't even get me started on her." Lee said, "They are just jealous that all the guys wanna bang you and not them."

"Don't be gross." I said, and he laughed, "Does it look like I've been crying?"

"A little. Not too bad." Lee told me.

He grabbed my hand and led me out of the bathroom.

He always made me feel better. All he had to do was say something stupid or give me one of his signature looks and a kiss and everything would be better. I honestly don't know what I would do without him here. He really is my rock.

[caitlynj]

I love Lee. He's amazing.

[lovestory]

Kendall.

Leah, Bayley, and me were heading into a restaurant near the hotel that they were staying at. My grandparents flew in form, Mississippi this morning and spent the day with my sisters while I was at rehersal. It was the first time I have seen them in almost a year. I used to see them all the time when I was in school, because they lived about fifteen minutes from my dorm, but recently since I've been out here it has been phone conversations and e-mails.

They were you typical southern couple. They were high school sweethearts and were married when they were only nineteen and have been happily together ever since. Every summer when I was growing up I would go spend a couple weeks in Mississippi with them and my sisters. We spent our days fishing with my grandpa and baking with my Nana. It was some of my favorite times and I miss seeing them.

We finally made it to the restaurant, after I signed autographs for a few people and took pictures with them. It was still mind boggling that people actually recognized me, and it was even more mind boggling that they actually cared about me and wanted to meet me. It will never get old hearing little girls tell me that they look up to me and that they want to be like me when they get older. It was a honor to be looked up too.

My grandparents were standing in front of the restuarant, waiting for us as we arrived. I smiled and hurried over to my Nana as she held her arms out to me.

"Hi Nana!" I hugged her tightly.

"Hi sweetheart! You just get more beautiful everytime I see you!" She grabbed my face in her hands and leaned down, kissing my forehead, "How are you doing?"

"Very good! This is quite a change of pace, but I am enjoying life right now." I smiled.

"Good. You deserve all of this." She gave me a soft smile.

"Thank you." I said.

I pulled away from my Nana and walked over to grandpa. He pulled me into a tight bear hug and I laughed, hugging him back.

"Hi princess."

"Hi. How are you?" I asked.

"I've been great and watching my grand daughter live out her dream, has made me really happy. We're all very proud of you and everyone in Mississippi is rooting for you. They have holding parties at the bars in Oxford and it is quite a sight." He smiled, placing his hand on my shoulde.r

"It's really insane that people are actually getting together week after week in Mississippi and Georgia to watch me. I couldn't ask for more support and when you go back to Mississippi, tell them all that I love them and thank them for everything, because I wouldn't even be in this position if it weren't for them."

"I will let them know. I am sure that they will be thrilled to here from you." My Nana grinned.

"Let's go eat. I am starving and I want to catch up with my grand daughters." My grandpa said, wrapping his arm around Leah's shoulder.

"Yes, let's eat! I have been starving all day." I said, straightening out my dress as I followed them all inside.

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"Your mother tells me that you have a boyfriend." My grandfather said, over dinner, "He better be treating you right."

"Harry, leave her alone. I am sure he is a very nice boy." My grandmother hissed, slapping his arm

"He's a really nice guy. Ya'll would love him." Bayley spoke, taking a bite of her food.

"We'll have to meet him before this week is over." My grandfather said.

"Well, our schedules are pretty crazy with the show so I will see what we can do." I said.

I wasn't really in the mood to have my grandfather grill Lee. The poor guy has been through enough with me and he doesn't need to be put through the ringer from my grandpa, and believe me he will give Lee no mercy. I wasn't worried about my Nana, because I knew she would love him and in the end so will my grandpa, but I didn't want Lee to have to go through the interview process with him. He's been put through that enough.

"They can meet him tomorrow after you get out of rehersal. You have a short day tomorrow." Leah said, and I shot her a look.

"That would be wonderful." My grandmother gushed, "Wouldn't it, Harry?"

"That boy is going to be given the speech from me." My grandfather said.

"Oh gosh. Don't scare him off, I actually like this one." I grinned, "And I noticed that Leah was getting pretty close to his younger brother, who is actually in town."

Two can play this game, Leah.

"What is this? Some kinda deal ya'll have going on, you have to date brothers?" My grandfather said, and then looked at Leah, "You are too young for boys. Wait until you are atleast twenty and the boys mature more. Right now they only want one thing and you know what that is."

"I know." Leah said, holding up her hand before he went any further.

"Guys at any age just want sex." Bayley grinned.

"You two ladies should take pointers from Bayley. She's a beautiful, independent girl and is focusing on her job and doesn't need a boyfriend." My grandpa said.

"That is because whenever I get a boyfriend you or dad scare him away." Bayley said and I cringed at the sound of dad being said.

The whole thing between my parents has kinda been unspoken since we all found out. It probably isn't the best way to deal with things right now, but it was the only way we knew how to deal with it right now. It hurt too much to talk about it and I just kinda liked to try and forget about it for the time being.

"So, are we going to meet this boy tomorrow?" My grandfather asked.

"I will ask him. I'm sure he will want to meet ya'll." I nodded, and then smiled at my grandpa, "Just don't go too hard on him. I think he is actually a keeper."

"That's what you said about Kyle too." Leah scoffed, and everyone laughed.

"Kyle, blinded me with his pretty looks. Lee's not pretty, he's a man's man and hot." I said.

"I don't wanna hear this." My grandpa said.

"I promise you that you will like him though." I said.

"I will be the judge of that." He smirked.

"Poor boy. He seems like a very sweet kid from what I saw on the show."

"It's for the cameras, Diane." He responded.

"Oh hush!" She waved her hand at him and leaned closer to me, "And he is mighty cute and that voice is amazing!"

"Oh my gosh!" I sighed.

Somethings should just be left unsaid.

[alexisgat06]

I love this!

[caitlynj]

haha, love her grandparents.

[lovestory]

Kendall.

"My grandparents want to meet you tonight." I said, glancing up at Lee as we stood in his kitchen, the following morning before rehersal.

"Alright." Lee said.

I glanced over at him as he grabbed a water bottle from the refridgerator. He stood up straight and turned around and looked at me as he unscrewed the cap of his water bottle.

"Is there a problem?" He asked.

"No, it's just my grandfather can be a bit overprotective at times." I explained to him.

"I'm a big boy. I can handle it and besides your parents weren't the easiest people to impress and I think I did a pretty good job. I mean last time your mom was here she baked me cookies." Lee said, and I had to smile.

"My grandfather is ten times worse then my father ever was," I said, leaning against the counter and crossing my arms over my chest, "He grilled Kyle for hours on end. He even told him that he better keep it in his pants or he he would make sure he never used it again."

"That's a bit harsh." Lee cringed.

"Yeah, so we are still virgins. Alright?" I told him.

"Haven't been one since I was seventeen, but alright." Lee nodded.

"I don't really care to hear when you lost your virginity, but thanks for clearing that up." I smiled.

"It's going to be alright. He'll grill me, I will charm him and then we will come home and celebrate how awesome of a job I did at charming your grandfather." Lee teased and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Cover up your tattoos tonight." I said, looking at his arms.

"Why?"

"Because my grandpa does not approve and I really want you to make a good impression. Wait until he likes you to show off the tattoos." I said.

"You have so many rules." Lee grinned.

"I like the tattoos, but he doesn't and we are trying to impress him. Wear one of your blazers with a nice pair of jeans too."

"Anything else? You want me to shave my head, wax my eyebrows, throw on some blush? Whatever else you need, I'll do it." Lee said, sarcastically as he dropped his arms from around my waist.

"Don't be a smartass." I rolled my eyes and he smiled.

"I will do whatever you want me to do tonight. I will wear a friggen tux if you want me too. Just don't be worried about this all day. I'm a grown man and I can handle this. I'm not going to be scared off and even if he hates me, you are still stuck with me." He told me.

"Thanks Lee." I said, wrapping my arms around him.

"I don't wanna go to rehersal. I hate practicing these damn group numbers." Lee sighed, bending down and burying his face in my neck, "I feel like I just show everybody up with my awesome dance moves and I don't wanna come off as a showoff."

"Oh yeah! You have two left feet, my love." I laughed.

"I know and I don't wanna deal with Lacey today. Thank God Katie will be back today." I told him.

"How I missed the constanst giggling and random singing and dancing." Lee said, looking up, "Do you wanna call in sick and just spend the rest of day in bed and I don't mean that in a perverted way for once."

"No. That would be kinda suspcious, babe. Let's go get ready." I told him.

"I sometimes hate that you are responsible."

I laughed and headed out of the kitchen, Lee following close behind.

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I glared over at Lacey and Lee, who just so happened to be paired up for the group number and let's just say she was doing everything in her power to get me pissed off. Little touches here and there, laughing loudly at the things he said (eve n if they weren't supposed to be funny.), hugging him, and God only knows what else. I must say it was pissing me off quite a bit to watch.

"You alright?" Aaron asked me.

"It just sucks to watch this." I sighed.

"He's clearly not into it." Aaron assured me, placing his arm around my shoulder.

"I know. It's just the fact she feels the need to act that way just to piss me off." I rolled my eyes.

"Party's here!"

I stopped talking to Aaron and turned around to see Andrew and Katie making their way into the room. I smiled, forgetting all about the flirting that Lacey was doing and ran over to Katie, practically knocking her over in a hug. She laughed, as she wrapped her arms around me and hugged me back.

"Whoa!" She laughed.

"I am so happy you are here! I have so much crap to tell you that I couldn't tell you over the phone." I said quietly.

"I've been gone four days, how much did I miss?" She laughed.

"Oh, you don't even know. We have some Lacey drama, some Lee drama, and some more Lacey drama." I grinned, letting go of her.

"More Lee drama?" She sighed.

"Well, kinda. It's hard to explain." I laughed, "I'm so happy you are back! Don't ever leave me again!"

"Deal." She laughed.

"Drew!" I smiled, walking over to Andrew and hugging him tightly.

"What's up boo?" He asked, kissing my cheek and hugging me.

"Not much. Just hanging in there."

"Is Lee treating you right?" Andrew smiled, wrapping his arma round my shoulder.

"Yes. Everything would be perfect if Lacey wasn't here." I grinned.

"She's nothing. Lee doesn't want that. Trust me whenever I talk to him, it's always about you and how much he loves you. You brainwashed him or something, because it's sick how much he loves you."

"It's just my awesomeness that made him fall for me."

"Get outta here." He nudged me, and started laughing.

[caitlynj]

so excited to see Andrew and Katie back.

[lovestory]

Kendall.

"Whoa! You had a pregnancy scare?" Katie gasped, as she sat on my bed.

I was getting ready for the dreaded dinner with Lee and my granparents and Katie and my sisters were over to help me get ready. I turned around from my spot in front of the mirror, where I stood fixing my hair. The look on her face was priceless, her mouth hanging opened.

"Yes. We had Lee's brother go and buy us pregnancy tests." I said, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear, "I was totally freaking out and I wish you were here because I was going nuts. It was the scariest moment of my life."

"You should have called. I would have talked to you." Katie told me.

"No. That's something I don't wanna say over the phone and not to mention you were extremely busy." I said, smoothing out my dress and looking back in the mirror.

"How did Lee react?"

"He tried to be the knight in shining armor. He was there for me and tried to act cool and calm, but he was totally freaking out. He was what I needed though, he really comforted me and that's all I could ask him to do." I smiled.

"He's a good guy." Bayley smiled said.

"He is. I got lucky," I said and turned back around, "Does this dress make my butt look big?"

"You look good." Leah laughed and shook her head.

"Well according to Lacey, I am a fat heffer." I smiled.

"She's crazy. I can't believe she said that to you. I used to like her, but I think if I hear her say anything to you I will b!tch her out. Nobody messes with my Kendall." Katie laughed.

"Oh gosh. She is insane. Did you see her grinding all up on Lee today? I so badly wanted to reach out and pull her hair. I'm a nice person, but when you cross me like that it pisses me off. Keep your hands off my man if you want to keep your teeth in your mouth."

"Lee, looks so uncomfortable with her too." Katie said.

"Whatever. I don't feel like talking about her anymore. I have to worry about my grandfather not scaring Lee off." I sighed, grabbing a bracelet from my dresser and sliding it on.

"Relax, it will all be okay." Leah assured me.

"I hope so." I checked myself in the mirror again.

"He's not that bad." Bayley said.

"Thanks for trying to make me feel better, but you know damn well that he is awful when it comes to boyfriends. Atleast he isn't home so he doesn't have his hunting guns to pull out, like he did when I brought Kyle to go visit him." I smiled.

"Well, you also have to take into consideration that nobody liked Kyle! Lee and Kyle are completely different. Kyle, was the frat boy who treated you like crap and Lee, is the rocker hottie who treats you like a princess. Grandpa is going to try and act all hard, but in the end he is going to be buddys with Lee. Mark my word." Bayley said.

I hope she was right.

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"Alright, I am just warning you that he is ten times worse then my parents when it comes to grilling people." I told Lee, as we were heading into the restuarant.

"I know. You told about five thousand times. It's going to alright."

"I'm so sorry. I'm just nervous for you." I said.

"That sure as hell isn't making me feel any better." Lee laughed.

I gave him a small smile as he opened the door to the restuarant and let me walk in. He followed closely behind me as we made our way to the table my grandparents were sitting at. They both stood up and greeted me with hugs and kisses.

"Hi sweetie." My grandma said.

"Hi. Nana and grandpa this is Lee." I said, grabbing Lee's arm and pulling him next to me.

"It's so nice to finally meet you! You are even cuter in person!" My grandma said as she gave him a hug and kissed his cheek.

"It's nice to meet you too and thanks." He laughed.

"Nice to meet you." My grandpa said, holding his out to Lee.

"Nice to meet you too." Lee said, shaking his hands.

"Sit down and make yourselves comfortable." My grandma said.

This was going alright.

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Dinner was going alright. My grandfather was being his usual self, but not too horrible and my grandmother absolutely adored Lee. It could have been much worse, so I wasn't complaining. Every now and then there would be a comment thrown out by grandfather, but my grandmother quickly shut him up. One of the many reasons I loved her.

"I have to say, you seem to make my granddaughter very happy. She usually goes for the jerks, but you actually seem okay." My grandfather said.

"Thanks. I think." Lee smiled.

"Just keep your paws off her. I know what guys your age thing about and I don't want you thinking about Kendall in that way. She's not a piece of meat and she sure as hell better not be sleeping with you, not until you put a ring on her finger."

Oh my gosh! He did not just go there. If only he really knew.

"Okay." Lee nodded.

"Can we not talk about that kinda stuff?" I asked.

"I agree. They are adults, leave them both alone. He's a sweetheart and he makes Kendall happy and if Kendall's happy then I am happy."

"I am happy that Kendall's happy as well. I just wanna make sure this kid isn't putting on some kind of act."

"No act here."

"He's a good guy! The opposite of Kyle." I smiled.

"You couldn't have gotten worse then him." My grandfather said and Lee laughed, "See, even he realizes that."

"I've heard stories. That was her boyfriend when we frist met and that kid has done some crap that if I ever saw him face to face he would get it and I am not a fighter." Lee said.

"I like that." My grandfather said, "The fact you'll take care of that little bastard makes me like you a little more. I think we could get along, Lee."

God help me.

[caitlynj]

haha. loved this chapter as well.

[lovestory]

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Kendall.

Tuesday rolled around and I was sitting in the backstage area, watching as Lee performed a amazing rendition of Simon and Garfunkels 'The Boxer'. The judges were giving him amazing feedback and I have to say, seeing him nail a performance was just as good of a feeling I had when I nailed mine. Don't get me wrong I love everyone left here and we are all good friends, but I don't think I could lose Lee after losing Katie and Andrew the week before.

"You can let up on my arm now." Crystal laughed.

I looked down and saw that I had been holding onto her arm with a death grip. I hadn't even realized I was doing it to her.

"I'm so sorry! Sometimes I just get nervous when he goes up, because I know how nervous he gets."

"He's been knocking it out for a few weeks now. Your man is not nervous no more." Big Mike said.

Lee walked through the door a few minutes later with a huge grin on his face. I stood up and pulled down my dress and walked over to him, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him tightly. He placed his hand on my back.

"That was amazing!" I told him.

"Thank you."

"You killed it! I'm so proud of you." I kissed his cheek and let go of him.

"That's how you do it, L-Boogie!" Big Mike said, giving him five.

I stepped back and allowed everyone else to congratulate him. I had to say this was the first time he actually seemed to be relaxed after the judges comments. No matter how good the judges comments were to him, he was usually saying how he was going home. I think he is finally realizing that he has a lot of fans and that he can sing his ass off.

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I stood on the stage as my pre-performance video with Alicia Keys played. The judges were extra harsh tonight, so far they ripped apart Aaron, Casey, and Tim and only liked Lee. I wasn't sure how they were going to react to me singing a Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey duet, considering that they are probably two of the greatest singer ever. I was just going to sing my butt off and hopefully the judges will like me.

I took a deep breath as the video ended and everyone cheered. Ryan stood off the side of the stage and I glanced over at him.

"Here she is, singing "When You Believe" by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston, please welcome Kendall Thompson!"

Everyone cheered as the music cued in.

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
We were moving mountains long
before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
Somehow you will
You know, you know, you will

You will when you believe
You will when you believe

I finished the song as everyone in the studio cheered for me. I knew that it wasn't my best performance and I was prepared to take it from the judges. It was probably my worst performance since I have been here and I just wanted to run off the stage and not be judged. I knew I was going to hear it.

"Yo. Alright, you probably took on one of the biggest songs of the night," Randy said as the cheers subsided, "I mean Mariah and Whitney are powerhouses and you have a big voice, but it just didn't work for me. It was okay, but definately not your best."

I gave him a small smile and nodded as the studio remained in a awkward silence.

"I actually disagree with Randy. I loved that you took a chance and sang this big song. It wasn't your best performance, but I still enjoyed it." Ellen said.

"Thank you!" I said, over the cheers.

Gosh, I loved Ellen. She always had something nice to say and it made everything so much easier to handle. If it weren't for her I may run off the stage now and start crying like a baby.

"Kendall, I don't know what happened to you tonight." Kara said, and everyone started to boo, "I feel like this song should have worked in your favor and it did in some parts. The opening was great, but once you started reaching for those big notes you kinda fell short, which was strange because usually you are hitting those. It just wasn't very good."

I bit my bottom lip as I felt the tears forming in the back of my eyes as everyone booed.

I would not cry on stage. I will do anything to hold my tears in until I got backstage, but Simon is next and I know he is going to be even ten times meaner then Kara.

"Kendall, I think the nerves got to you and I think you picked a awful song choice for you and I'm getting confused with what kind of artist you want to be. One week you are walking around belting out Rolling Stones and the next you are singing a song by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. It's all so confusing to me. If you stick around, I want you to come out here and show what kind of artist you want to be."

"Okay." I said.

"Kendall Thompson, everybody!" Ryan said, as everyone cheered, "What kind of artist do you see yourself as?"

"Um. I kinda can see myself doing a pop/rock album." I said.

"Then those are the type of songs I want to hear you chose and if there are none on the list, then I want you to try and make it your own." Simon said.

"Okay." I nodded.

"To vote for Kendall dial 1-866-IDOLS-05 or text the word VOTE to 5705. Thank you Kendall." Ryan said, placing his hand on my shoulder, "Stick around, after the break Big Mike Lynche takes the stage."

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I walked into the holding room and everyone made their way over to me. Lee was the first one to hug me tightly. I wrapped my arms around his neck and just broke down.

"You're alright. We all have off night, babe." Lee whispered, kissing my temple.

"Don't get yourself upset over that. They aren't the ones voting." Crystal said, rubbing my back.

"I blew it. I screwed up so badly." I buried my face in Lee's neck, as he held me.

I pulled away from Lee and he gave me a sad smile and wiped my tears, before kissing my forehead.

"You didn't blow it. How many times have they told me I was pitchy or boring and needed to smile more, I'm still here!" Lee said.

"And last week they yelled at me for smiling too much." Tim smiled, wrapping his arm around my shoulder, "And they always say I suck, but how many people can say that they have lived this experience and peform in front of millions each week. Don't allow this to ruin your night."

"I thought you sounded awesome." Crystal said, hugging me.

"Stop lying. I know I sounded like crap." I laughed softly.

"You'll be here next week." Aaron said.

"Especially with the way you look in that dress." Casey said.

"Watch it, princess." Lee said, shooting him a look.

"I need to take a walk and get some air."

"Want me to come?" Lee asked.

"No." I shook my head.

I walked out of the room and headed down the hall, towards a empty section. I leaned against the wall and let out another sob.

I hope I didn't ruin my chances.

[caitlynj]

aww poor Kendall.