Crazy Dreams Pt. 2

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Chapter 14.

I walked into the apartment and headed to Leah's room, which was my old room, and saw her sitting on her bed, crying. I tossed my car keys in my purse and walked over to her and sat down on her bed, immediately pulling her into a hug. She rested her head on my shoulder and cried. She was there for every fight that Lee and I got into and now it was my turn to return the favor.

"What happened?" I asked.

"He's just a jerk and he completely flipped out on me because I was going to study with some kid in my Chemistry class and he didn't want me studying with another guy." Leah explained, betweens sobs. "He got pissed off and we ended up in a screaming match and he stormed out of here."

"Does he have a reason to be jealous about this whole thing?" I questioned, and she shrugged. "Leah?"

"I guess! He asked me out on a date a while back and I decline, obviously. Mike found out and when I told him we were going to study together he freaked out and asked me if I was going to study or do this guy." Leah let out a shakey breath, "I never gave him a reason to feel that way."

"Yeah, but this kid obviously likes you and Mike is feeling threatened by the whole thing." I told her.

"He has no reason to feel that way."

"Leah, how would you feel if there was some girl who was hitting on Mike and he decided to go and hang out with her?" I asked.

"We weren't going to be hanging out, it's studying." She defended herself.

"You'd end up doing more then studying and I don't mean that in a hooking up kind of way, I mean that in a talking kind of way. That qualify's as hanging out, boo."

"Did you and Lee ever fight this bad?"

"Are you kidding me? Lee and I broke up about fifty times over the course of our relationship, we are just learning how to make things work." I told her, "You and Mike are going to be okay. You both need to just cool down a bit and then talk it out."

"I hate fighting with him."

"Nobody likes fighting with the person that they love." I said.

"Then why are you fighting with Dad?" Leah asked, looking up at me as she wiped her tears.

"You think I enjoy fighting with him?" I asked and shook my head. "Dad said some pretty horrible stuff and he's the one who doesn't want to be in my life, because I got pregnant. He wants nothing to do with the baby and you know what, screw him."

"Mom has been calling me upset about everything. She doesn't know who's side to take."

"She alreay chose dad's side. She didn't even attempt to defend me." I sighed.

"I mean, I think they were just upset about the whole thing. Nobody wants a phone call from their 21 year-old daughter saying they are pregnant and then ruining a once in a lifetime moment."

"Everything happens for a reason and you really aren't making me feel better." I muttered.

"I'm just saying. I'm thrilled to be a aunt, but you have to know dad would have reacted that way and it was said out of anger. He didn't mean any of it."

"If he didn't mean any of it, he could pick up a phone and apologize to me and Lee, because the way he acted was completely out of line." I said, "I know that him and Lee don't get along, but he needs to move past that. Lee wouldn't have a problem with him if dad wasn't such a jerk to him. Dad, needs to realize that Lee is a good guy and treats me really well and he is going to be there for me and the baby."

"Do you think you and dad will ever be better?"

"Hopefully, but he has to make the first move." I told her and she nodded, I laid my head on her shoulder. "Our perfect little family isn't so perfect."

"I know." She laughed softly.

"Are you okay with everything that is going on?" I asked.

"With Mike?" She questioned.

"No, with this whole sitaution. I don't want you to feel like you need to choose sides. I love you and Mom and dad love you too. You don't have to choose sides for anybody." I said, looking at her.

"It's hard, because I do love you all and I don't sometimes feel stuck in the middle."

"I don't think any of us expect you to choose sides, I know I don't. Don't feel like you ever have to. I love you no matter what."

"I love you too, Kendall! Thanks for coming over here." She whispered.

"Anytime. Mike's gonna get over it. He's just like Lee and they need their time to cool off before they come back, just give it time." I assured her.

"These DeWyze boys are too much work." Leah said.

"Yes, yes they are!" I laughed.

The door opened and Katie came walking in, she walked over to us and plopped down on the bed, next to Leah and wrapped her arm around her shoulder, hugging her.

"Mike's stupid." She said and we both laughed.

"Wanna go get some pedicures and manicures, then grab some lunch?" I asked, the two of them.

"Yes!" Katie said.

"I guess." She smiled.

"Great, my treat." I said.

"We need a girls day away from all the boys." Leah said.

"That is why I am single girlies. I have no boys to fight with or no boys to knock me up, although I am excited about the DeWyze baby." Katie beamed and I smiled.

"Oh and we found out the sex today." I bit my bottom lip.

"Please tell me!" Katie squealed.

"Oh my gosh! How can you just tell me this now?" Leah perked up.

"Because we got into a really deep conversation." I laughed.

"Just tell us!" Katie said.

"A girl." I smiled.

"Oh my gosh! I knew it!" Katie bounced up and down on the bed.

"A girl! I'm going to have a niece! I am so excited!" Leah tossed her arms around me.

"I'm excited too." I smiled.

"Congratulations, girl!" Katie hugged me.

"Thanks."

"How was Lee with the news?" Katie asked.

"He got a little teary eyed and my heart kinda melted at that." I smirked.

"Oh my gosh, Lee! He's gonna be such a good daddy! I love that little shit so much!" Katie gushed and I laughed.

"I think we need to add osme baby shopping to the list for today." Leah suggested.

"I agree! Cute clothes galore." Katie nodded.

I laughed and nodded.

I needed some girl time.

[caitlynj]

Leah and Kendall are so cute together as sisters.

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Chapter 15.

Two monthes later and I was currently six monthes pregnant and getting bigger each day. I was swallon, craving the strangest foods, my horomones were crazy and I was crying over everything, and I couldn't keep my hands off Lee. I don't know what that was about, because a few monthes ago I wanted to kill him, just because he was in my space.

We were laying in bed, his hand rested on my stomach and his eyes closed. It was late and the baby was making it impossible to get comfortable. She was kicking and not to mention, my back was killing me. It also didn't help that Lee, put Capone on the bed before we fell asleep and let's just say that bulldog was a bit of a bed hog.

"Lee, are you awake?" I smacked his chest lightly.

"Well, I am now." He mumbled, "Kendall, I love you, but I can't do this anymore tonight. I'm tired and it's almost three in the morning and I have to be up by six. I can't have sex again, I just can't now. You're exhausting me."

"Lee." I sighed.

"I mean, most guys think it would be awesome to have a girlfriend constantly want to be in bed with them and don't get me wrong, it's great and I love it, but I need a break! I'm not some kind of superhuman guy who can have sex 24/7. I get tired and I need my rest." Lee continued to ramble. "I love you, but I just need a break."

"I don't want sex." I said, louder then expected.

"Oh." Was all he said.

"I know I usually do and you can blame that on my horomones, because for some reason I find you extrememly sexy and irresistilbe." I said.

"I don't know whether to take that as a compliement or not, you act like that is some strange thing to find me attractive." Lee smiled.

"Well, I used to be able to control myself around you, but not it's like you walk in a room and I just want you."

"Now you know how I feel, and you can no longer call me a pervert cause you are worse then I have ever been." Lee teased.

"Anyway, enough about this because if we continue to talk I'm going to want some and you are going to have to comply, because I am pregnant and you have to cater to me." I said.

"Is that some sort of unwritten law that I am unaware of?" Lee laughed softly.

"Yes." I smiled and laid my head on his chest.

"Okay. What's up, why did you wake me up out of a sound sleep?" Lee asked.

"I can't sleep, she's kicking like a soccer player and my back is killing me." I traced my finger, along the tattoo on his arm.

He placed his hand back on my stomach and let out a yawn.

"She's really going crazy in there." Lee said.

"I know."

"Candy is really making it hard for you to sleep." Lee said.

"Stop with the name Candy." I laughed softly, kicking his shin lightly.

"Capone, do you like the name Candy?" Lee kicked the dog, gently nudging him awake. His head shot up and Lee looked over at me with a sly grin. "He loves it too."

"Do you want our daughter to be a stripper, prostitute, or porn star?" I teased.

"What names do you have picked out?" Lee asked.

"I got nothing, but even that is better than Candy." I said.

"Go to sleep, because I am tired." Lee closed his eyes and rubbed my stomach.

I kissed him and closed my eyes, as I laid my head back on his chest. His hand ran up and down my stomach gently and I was finally almost asleep, when Lee opened his mouth and blurted out a name.

"Payton!" He said.

"What?" I asked.

"Payton. We should name her Payton. I always liked the name and I was too scared to mention it to you, because I didn't want you to laugh at it if you hated it." Lee said.

"This doesn't have to do with Walter Payton, does it?" I asked, referring to the ex-Chicago Bear player, the football team that Lee was obsesed with.

"Nope, more like Peyton Manning." Lee teased.

"I actually really like that name and it's different, without being too different." I said.

"So, no Candy, but yes to Payton?" Lee laughed.

"Lee, if you mention Candy once more time I am going to smack you upside your huge dome." I teased.

"I just like getting you worked up, I really don't like the name."

"Good, because I would have felt sorry for you if you did like the name." I said.

"So, Payton Candy DeWyze it is."

"Lee, I am honestly going to kill you!" I pinched his arm.

[caitlynj]

haha, that was cute.

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Chapter 16.

The monthes flew by and now I was due anyday. I was huge and irritable, and I just wanted this baby out of me. Lee was at the studio almost everyday and it sucked not having him around a lot, but his parents flew in a few days ago for the birth and they have been lifesavers.

I went from not being able to keep my hands off Lee, to him not being able to keep his hands off of me and I am as big a whale and not in the mood for it. I haven't been in the mood for it, since two monthes ago. Which is probably the reason he wanted it so badly, not because I was hot or anything, because believe me I wasn't.

Lee, was starting to drive me nuts. He was going through a mid-life crisis at the age of 24, I swear. He went out partying with his friends, so much. He would come home drunk and high (he would deny that) and I was stuck taking care of him. It pissed me off to no end, and it will be a cold day in hell if he does this when Payton is born.

We were all set for Payton to come and I was excited, but nervous at the same time. Lee and his dad redid the guest room and made a adorable nursery for her, and Katie and my sisters threw me a huge baby shower with all my friends. Everyone from Idol, minus Lacey and Crystal came and it was awesome to see all my friends and get adorable baby gifts from them. Lee always joked that Payton had more clothes then him and me combined, and she probably did.

I sat in the kitchen one night in my sweats and my hair in a messy bun on top of my head. I was eating dinner, Lee's mom was sitting at the table with me and Lee was at the studio.

"She is kicking like crazy." I said, placing my hand on my stomach as I felt a hard kick.

I heard the door that led to the garage open and looked up, seeing Lee walking into the house. Capone went running towards him.

"Hey!" Lee said, as he bent down and patted Capone's head, looking over in our direction.

"Hi honey!" Kathy smiled.

Lee walked over to me and bent down, kissing the top of my head. I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck, placing a kiss on the side of his neck.

"You're back late." I said, letting go of him.

"I know, recording ran later than expected. How are you feeling?"

"Okay." I lied.

I was having awful pains in my stomach all day. I don't think they were contractions, because they weren't the that painful. It was probably just indigestion or something.

"We ordered take out, because Kendall was craving Mexican food." Kathy said.

"There is food on the counter for you, if you are hungry. If not, I will eat it." I told him and gave me a amused smile.

"I'm actually going to take a shower and head out, if that is cool." Lee said.

"Where are you heading out too?" I asked.

"Some club that just opened up. Andrew texted me and invited me to go out with him and a few of his friends." Lee said.

"Seriously?" I asked.

"Yeah, why?"

Was he serious? Why? Maybe, because I am 9 monthes pregnant and about to pop. Maybe, because I hardly get to see you. Maybe, because you are going out with Andrew, who I love dearly, but he is kind of a man whore and I know Lee would be having the girl's flock him. I know there was a crap load of temptation.

"Just go." I snapped, standing up and carrying my empty plate to the sink.

"Why are you so pissed off?" Lee asked.

"I'm not mad. Go and have fun, but I am not taking care of your drunk ass when you come pouring into bed at three in the morning and you better not wake me up." I brushed past him and headed upstairs to our room. I heard Lee say something to his mom.

How was he this oblivious? I don't understand what goes through that head of his sometimes. Gosh, he was lucky he was a goodlooking guy, because he was not the brightest bulb.

I slammed the door and walked over to the bed, pulling down the covers and climbing under them. I grabbed the remote and turned on the tv, when Lee came walking into the room.

"Do you wanna tell me what the hell is going one, instead of slamming doors and brushing me off?" Lee asked, crossing his arms over his chest.

"Just think about it Lee, you aren't that stupid! You know what is wrong." I said.

"If you have a problem with me going out then just tell me, don't just close me off." Lee sighed, leaning against the dresser.

"What? So, I can be the bitchy girlfriend who wants her boyfriend to stay in and not go out partying with his friends, because she is knocked up and about to pop any minute?" I asked, glancing over at him.

"Okay. I won't go." Lee muttered.

"I hate to break this to you, but this whole going out with friends to get drunk is over. You need to grow the hell up, because we have a baby coming any day now. It's gonna be a cold day in hell if I am taking care of a infant and your drunk and high ass." I said.

"You want me to just give up my whole social life?" Lee asked, and I could see him getting annoyed.

"No, but you need to grow up! You have come home drunk and high on more then one occasion and you can't be doing that when we have a baby." I told him.

Lee was a party boy. He enjoyed going out for drinks with his friends and I was no idiot, he would come home smelling like pot every now and then. He is in the music industry and it's a very common thing, but pigs will fly if I let my daughter be around that crap. I will leave his ass, before she could be around that.

"I don't smoke anything other then cigarettes and you know that." Lee said, narrowing his eyes. "I don't do that shit anymore and you accusing me of doing that, pisses me off beyond belief."

"You come home smelling like it! I'm not a freakin' idiot, Lee." I rolled my eyes.

"I have friends who do it, but that doesn't mean I do."

"You just need to grow up." I whispered. "You're single lifestyle is over with and you can hurt me all you want, but you need to do the right things for Payton."

"Don't even feed me this bullshit. I have been here for you since I found out you were pregnant." Lee sighed and we sat in silence for a few seconds, before he spoke. "I don't wanna fight with you."

"You think you I want to fight?" I asked.

He bent down, resting his hands on the bed as he looked down at me. I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down to me, giving him a kiss.

"I love you and I am not going to screw this up." He muttered, into my neck.

"I love you too."

"Let me call Andrew and we can stay in and have a movie night, sound good?" Lee asked, giving me a small smile.

"I like that." I nodded.

He kissed my forehead, before standing up and walking out of the room.

Maybe he just needed a little whipping into place? I sure hope that is all he needed.

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I stood in the bathroom a little later that night, Lee was in bed, watching some stupid movie that he insisted on watching and I had to have a bathroom break. The pains were starting to get stronger and closer together in my stomach and I was pretty sure, that I was wrong and these were contractions.

I was pretty sure that they were contractions and I was positive they were when my water broke.

"Lee." I called.

The bathroom door opened and Lee looked down and made a disgusted face as he looked down at my wet pants.

"What the hell is that?" Lee asked, pointing.

"My water broke! Don't be a ass right now." I said.

"Oh my gosh! What the hell? Okay, umm I'll get your bag and you change your pants, because aren't sitting on my leather seats with those on."

"I'm in labor and all you care about is your car? Real nice." I rollled my eyes, walking past him and to my dresser.

"Do we need to rush? I feel like we should be moving faster!" Lee panicked.

"It's okay, we have sometime. I will change and then we will go." I assured him, as I quickly pulled of my pants and changed into a pair of black yoga pants.

"I just don't want to be delvering this baby, because I am pretty sure I might throw up if I ever had to do that." Lee said.

"Let's go. I am ready."

"How are you so calm right now? Aren't you supposed to be screaming at me and calling me names, because you are in so much pain?" Lee asked, as he pulled the duffle bag we had packed up, out from the closet.

"I am fine, until a contraction hits."

"Holy f**k." Lee sighed.

"What?" I asked, grabbing his arm gently, as we walked out of the room.

"We're having a baby."

I smiled and squeezed his arm tightly as a contraction hit. The smile wiped off my face as I winced in pain. Lee stopped walking and rubbed my back wih his other hand.

"You alright?" Lee asked.

"Yeah." I said, after a few seconds.

I took a deep breath and grabbed his hand, walking down the stairs and into the kitchen, where his parents were still sitting.

"Is it time?" Kathy gasped, jumping up from her chair.

"Yes, that water thing broke." Lee made a face.

"Ow. Ow. Ow." I yelped, as I grabbed his hand even tighter, as another contraction hit.

"Shit! Are you trying to break my hand?" Lee muttered.

"Okay, you two head to the hospital and we will meet you guys there."Lee Sr. said.

"I'll call your brother and tell him to get there with Leah." Kathy added.

"Alright, let's go baby. Let's go push this kid out of your vagina." Lee smirked and I rolled my eyes.

He was going to learn quickly, that there was not going to be any joking around.

[caitlynj]

haha, can't wait to see what they think of the new baby.

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I had it written up and my computer froze up. I will have a update tomorrow.

[caitlynj]

okay, sorry about the computer.

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I sat up in the hospital bed, my hair in a messy bun on top of my head and my glasses on. Lee was falling asleep in the chair next to my bed and Lee's parents were next to Lee, talking with me. Leah, Mike, and Katie all headed home because it was late and it didn't seem like I would be pushing for a while yet.

We have been at the hospital for five hours and I was still not pushing. It seemed like Payton was being stubborn like her dad already and didn't want to be woken up. The pain hasn't been too awful considering I had epidural and it worked wonders. I don't think I would survive without it.

"Do you need anything? Are you comfortable?" Kathy asked.

"I'm good." I said.

"I read online that if you have sex it can help with the labor, wanna give it a try?" Lee asked, looking over at me.

"Nah, I am good on that as well." I held up my hand in his direction and yawned. "Gosh, I am so tired."

"Go to sleep." Lee muttered.

"I would, but I am scared too. What if I give birth while I am sleeping or something?" I asked, Lee's eyes shot opened and he gave me a look, as his parents both started laughing. "Why are you looking at me like that? I'm being serious and you're making me feel stupid."

"You should feel stupid after that comment. A baby isn't just gonna fly out of you when you are asleep." Lee rolled his eyes. "Not to mention the doctor would wake you up, you'd have to push a lot, and you would probably feel some sort of pressure."

"Sorry, didn't know you gave birth before." I said.

"You don't need to give birth to know that, it's common sense." Lee laughed.

"I don't need to have common sense, because I am in labor."

"Is that a rule?" Lee asked.

"Yes, I made that rule up myself." I nodded.

"Just try and sleep." Kathy said.

"Yeah, if the baby comes out I will wake you up." Lee laughed.

"Stop!" I flipped him off.

"That's not very nice Kendall." Lee shook his head.

"I hate you sometimes."

"Mutual feeling." Lee smirked.

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It was almost five in the morning and I was finally in labor and pushing and everything was happening so fast. Lee's parents went out to the waiting area, while Lee stood next to my bed, holding my hand and every now and then bending down and kissing my forehead or tell me how great I was doing.

"Okay, Kendall one more big push and this baby will be out!" Dr. Green said.

I took a deep breath and nodded. I gripped Lee's hand and pushed. I pushed and pushed until I felt the pressure leave my body and a loud scream. I looked over at Dr. Green who was holding the tiny screaming baby in his arms, while the nurse cut the chord (Lee opted out, because it was all making him "sick".)

"Oh my gosh!" I gasped, as the nurse took her from Dr. Green and wiped her down a bit before laying her on my chest.

"Holy shit." Lee murmered.

"Hi beautiful." I whispered, staring down at her in amazement as she continued to cry. I was amazed at the fact that Lee and I created something so perfect. "You got your daddy's lungs on you."

"I'm just going to take her and get her cleaned up and weighed. I'll bring her back in a few minutes." The nurse said, as she lifted her from my chest.

I looked up at Lee and saw he quickly wiped away tears, before anybody saw. Too late macho man, I saw it. I tugged on his hand and he looked down at me and smiled, before leaning down and brushing his lips against mine.

"I love you so much, you don't even know." Lee whispered, pulling back and resting his forehead against mine.

"I love you too."

"She is beautiful and I cannot believe she is ours." Lee said.

"We did good work." I smiled and he laughed softly.

"We did." He kissed me once more before standing up.

[caitlynj]

good chapter.

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I arrived home with Payton a couple days later and it was amazing to have her home with Lee and me. She was the perfect baby and Lee was already wrapped around her finger. She was only a week old and she was already attached to Lee. I had to admit that it was adorable to see the two of them together.

Lee was getting set to start his tour, which kicked off next week. He was going to be away for a couple monthes, which meant phone calls, video chats, and visits during his breaks. It was going to suck, but his mom was staying here and I also had my sister, Katie, and Mike if I ever needed anything.

"Kendall, your mom called while you were out earlier." Kathy said.

We were all sitting around the kitchen table eating dinner. I was cradling Payton in one arm and my fork in the other. Lee looked up from his cellphone, which he was texting on.

"Did you hang up on her?" I asked, and Lee shook his head.

"No. She wanted you to call her back." Kathy said.

"I don't think that will be happening anytime soon." I said.

"Maybe she wants to make up for everything that happened. Maybe she wants to be in Payton's life, you should just give her a call." Lee said, speaking up and I shot him a look. "What? Put yourself in her shoes for a minute."

"She had her chance and she blew it." I said.

"It was really your dad who started crap and said all those nasty things." Lee corrected.

"And she had her chance to tell him to shut up or have my back in some other way. I'm not calling her until I am ready too and I am not ready yet and I don't know if I ever will be." I explained and looked down at Payton, who was wide awake. Her big blue eyes were looking around the room.

"You're so stubborn." Lee sighed.

"You're one to talk." I said.

"We're not talking about me here." Lee said.

"Just butt out. If I want your input on everything I will ask you, but right now I am content with everything going on. Why ruin it?"

"Because you are keeping Payton away from her grandmother, who is willing to make a effort."

"She has two grandparents that love her." I pointed to Lee's parents.

"Whatever, you aren't going to listen to me."

"You're right. I'm not, so just keep your thoughts to yourself on this topic." I said, standing up and picking up my empty plate, with my free hand. "You need a diaper change."

I walked over to the sink and dropped my dishes in there, before hurrying out of the kitchen and upstairs. I walked down the hall and into Payton's nursery and grabbed a diaper from the bottom of the changing table and laid her down. I unsnapped her onsies, when Lee walked into the room.

"Did you come in here to tell me how to parent or something else?" I asked.

"Come on. I'm just trying to help out the situation."

"I like it better when you stay out of it."

"I'm sorry." Lee apologized, shoving his hands into his pockets. "I'm going to run to the studio for a minute. I will be there for a couple of hours, and then I will be back."

"Okay." I nodded, not looking up at him as I changed Payton's diaper.

"Are you still mad?" Lee asked me and I shook my head.

"Have fun with whatever you gotta do." I said, lifting Payton up to my chest and kissing her cheek.

"I'll call you a little later. I love you." Lee kissed me.

"I love you too." I said.

Lee leaned down and kissed Payton's cheek, mumbling a I love you to her.

"Bye." Lee said.

"Bye." I responded, "Tell daddy bye and that you love him."

Payton let out a yawn and I laughed as Lee smiled, before walking out of the room.

Maybe Lee had a point, maybe I should call my mom. I mean, she wasn't the one who was rude and cut me off, but she also didn't have ny back. What to do, what to do?

[caitlynj]

sometimes Lee is right. : )

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I sat on the couch in the living room, watching tv. It was three in the morning and Lee still wasn't home, which meant he probably went out to get shit faced with his friends after his meeting. I was pissed off that he just decided to go out and not even call or text me to tell me what time he was coming home or if he even went out. I couldn't sleep not knowing where he was or who he was with.

I heard the front door open a few minutes later and Lee came stumbling into the living room.

"Where were you?"

"I just went out for a few drinks with Chris, Jon, and Lincoln after our meeting." Lee said, giving me a half drunken smile.

I shut off the tv and looked at him and he immediately wiped the smile off his face when he saw that I wasn't playing around and that I was beyond pissed off at him and in my opinion I had every right to be pissed off at him. He was being a jerk right now.

"You could have called or texted me just to tell me where the hell you were going." I said.

"I don't have to check in with you." Lee slurred, running his hand across his face.

"Yes you do! I was up and worried about you."

"And if I told you where I was I would be lectured on going out. You would be texting me all night asking when I was coming home and questioning about all the girls who were there, because you kinda get crazy about that kind of stuff and it's really annoying."

"Now I am annoying?" I asked, narrowing my eyes. "I'm glad I annoy you!"

"Whatever." Lee waved his hand in my direction.

"Just so you know it would have been nice to have you home tonight. I just got Payton back to sleep about a half hour ago after three hours of her crying. It would have been nice if you were here to help me, instead of getting wasted with your friends." I told him.

"So now my social life has to suffer because we have a baby."

"Yes! Mine did and you have to make some sacrafices too." I snapped.

"That's why my parents are upstairs! To help with Payton, so stop trying to act like you have no help at all."

"I am not going to wake them up everytime she friggen cries Lee! You're her friggen father and you need to step it up."

"So, now I am a shitty dad cause I went out for drinks?" Lee asked, raising his voice.

"You're putting words in my mouth now." I said, raising my voice to match his.

"You're crazy and being a complete bitch!" Lee said.

"Don't even start name calling me."

"No, I am gonna because you are questioning my parenting skills. I love Payton more then anything and in all honestly if we didn't have Payton, I don't think I would put up with half of your shit." Lee said and I felt my stomach drop as those words came flying out of his mouth so easily. "Do you know how many girls were coming onto me tonight? I should have just taken them up on the offer since they wouldn't bitch at me like you do."

I know he was drunk and saying stuff he probably didn't mean, but it really hurt to hear him say those things. I've never seen this side of Lee before. He was usually a loving drunk, but I am seeing a whole new side.

"Sleep on the couch tonight." I said, standing up.

"I can't wait to be out on the road and away from you! I am going to be banging every chick that wants some!" Lee said, and I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He was just being mean to be mean now and I wasn't about to put up with it.

"Go ahead! Treat the ho's better then you treat me." I brushed past him and walked out of the room.

"Will do." Lee collasped on the couch.

"And tomorrow night you can take care of Leah while I go out with my friends and I won't tell you where I am, and we will see how you like it." I said.

"I'd love it!" He said.

I gave him the finger before heading upstairs. Lee's mom was walking out of the guest room.

"Is everything okay?"

"Fine." I gave her a small smile.

"I heard yelling."

"Oh, Lee's just drunk and you know how he gets when he has too much too drink. He gets loud." I lied.

"Are you sure?" Kathy asked.

"Yeah. I'm gonna go to bed, before Payton wakes up. I will see you in a few hours." I laughed softly.

"Goodnight."

"Night."

I walked into the bedroom and over to Payton's bassinett that was set up next to the bed. We decided to keep her in here for a couple of weeks, so we didn't have to walk down the hall every three hours when she woke up or in my case I wouldn't have to.

I looked down and smiled as she laid on her back, her arms above her head. She was wrapped in a light pink blanket and she was just so peaceful. I smoothed out the little bit of brown hair that was on her head.

"I'm beginning to think you're the only good thing coming out of this relationship." I whispered.

[caitlynj]

poor Kendall.

[lovestory]

I walked downstairs the next morning, holding Payton in my arms. It was six o'clock and the normal time she woke up to be fed and changed and she will probably be up for the rest of the day, until her midday nap. I was exhausted since I barely got any sleep, but I had to say just looking at her made everything better. Even if it wasn't.

Lee was standing in the kitchen dressed in jeans, a hoodie, and a red beanie on his head. He was making a cup of coffee and my guess was that he had to head to the studio early today, because with how drunk he was last night I'm sure he wouldn't be up this early if he didn't have to be. I hope he has the worst hangover ever.

Payton started to cry loudly and Lee winced, closing his eyes. My wish came true and he was hurting. If Payton wasn't hungry, I would just let her cry to put Lee through more pain. Karma's a bitch, but I couldn't let her just cry, so I grabbed a that was in the fridge and went to the microwave to warm it up.

"Oh, I know you're hungry! Shhh." I rocked her back and forth gently.

"You should have her bottle made up already." Lee muttered.

"It was made up. It needs to be warmed up and if you are so concerned about it, you could have warmed it up since you were up before me." I muttered as the microwave beeped. I opened it and grabbed her bottle, testing it to see if it was too warm, but it was the right temperature and I slid the bottle in her mouth and she immediately calmed down and started sucking on the bottle.

"Aren't you supposed to be breast feeding?" Lee narrowed his eyes at me as I walked over to the kicthen table and sat down on the chair.

"She wouldn't take to it, so the doctor said that I should just give her formula." I answered, knowing full well that he was looking for a fight. Like he really cared if I was breast feeding or not.

"Whatever." He muttered, placing his coffee mug in the sink.

"What time will you be back tonight?"

"I don't know." Lee shrugged and walked over to me, he bent down and kissed Payton's forehead. "I love you. I'll see you later, monkey."

"I'll see you later." I told him.

He nodded and grabbed his car keys off the table and walked out of the kitchen.

"I love you." I called out, because even if he was being a jerk and we were fighting, I did love him.

He didn't say anything back and I heard the door slam shut. I looked down at Payton and smiled.

"Well, you love me right?" I asked softly, she sighed and I smiled. "I love you too."

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I was sitting at a restaurant later that day, having lunch with Katie. She called me earlier and wanted to meet up with lunch and Lee's parents were nice enough to watch Payton for a couple of hours so that I could go out. I probably would have just had Katie come over, because I hate leaving Payton home, but I needed to talk to Katie about everything.

"How's everything with your cute little family now?" Katie asked.

"Not good." I shook my head.

"What's wrong?"

"Lee, came home so shitfaced last night and we got into a huge fight. He basically told me that he wouldn't be with me if Payton wasn't here and how he is going to sleep around while he is on tour." I shrugged and Katie frowned. "And this morning when he was leaving for the studio I told him that I loved him and he ignored me."

"He seriously said that?" Katie asked, taking a bite of her salad and I nodded. "Regardless if he was drunk or not, you don't say that to anybody."

"Everything was so good and then once Payton was born he did a complete 180." I said. "I mean, he is an amazing dad and he loves Payton, but to me he is a ass."

"He's not ready to have a baby." Katie said.

"Well, neither was I, but I stepped up and grew up. We aren't teenagers, we are in our 20's."

"Do you think it is worth it? Do you think you can get past this little hurdle?"

"I honestly don't know." I answered quietly.

"You guys need to figure it out, because it's not just about you two anymore. Payton is now involved and I hate to say it, but if you guys are fighting like this it's probably not the best to stay together." Katie told me.

"I don't know where it all went so badly." I broke down.

Katie stood up and walked over to me. She bent down and wrapped her arms around me and I cried into her shoulder as I clung onto her.

"I have a baby with this guy and I love him so much, and watching it go downhill kills me."

"I know." Katie told me.

"This is so much worse then all our other fights. I don't think this could be fixed." I whispered out.